handy dandy notebook #5

on occasion, at rest time, at school, I grab my handy dandy notebook and get to writing!! this was originally written on 12/11!

As Christmas fast approaches, I am reminded of a lot...

**I have NO money! As much as I love to do for others, I can't anymore.

I purely get joy from buying things for others. This year is a bit more tricky.

My money is super short!!

**I miss my mom! Yesterday was the day, five years ago that she finally decided that she couldn'nt take the pain anymore. We took her to the ER.

What a five years this has been! Full of ups and downs. Truthfully, most were DOWNS! :(

**I have nil Christmas spirit. I thought I could get into it this year.

I put up lights and a wreath, but that's it. Maybe it boils back down to the above...no money and remembering the pain of 5 years ago!

I am confident that I will get past all of this. I am just emotional and impatient!

Tis the season...

for...

who knows?